Thoughts Of Ailisi

Urge of putting up pictures

2010-09-14T11:35:00.000-07:00

I'm out today

2010-09-11T08:14:00.000-07:00

Finally, i had beed waiting for this day to go out... i sms Mei fen my child hood frd to ask if she wants to go out as i wan fresh air. left ard 4.40pm She agree and we went to Tiong bahru plaza for a few hrs and had BK. Saw some of my old working frds... wow... they are still there... so many yrs le...

walk ard for a while and my leg super hurt... gosh.... too long nv walk ard le... nut need to thank my knee guard and cruthes... the knee guard really support my leg real well...

Reach home ard 7.40pm but missed the "Ai" show... lucky is up to 9pm today.... time flies today... really fast...

Saw BAB fb pictures really temp me to go to the flea market... so gonna check it out tml... thanks joy and rey for agreeing to share cab there tml...

gonna slp soon... will update soon...

Salamat Hari Raya

2010-09-10T01:46:00.000-07:00

Had a mini celebration for our maid, Tami. Fried chicken, nugget, fries, koropok, and kuay lapis... not forgeting mum buy her this baju. Is it nice on her? i say so... she wore and it fit perfectly. She loves the baju... she called home and talk to her parents in the morning. Well well... Hope she enjoy her Hari raya...

Move on Alice

2010-09-10T01:29:00.000-07:00

I'm trying hard to hide my emotions... i do still missed him. And claims that i'll let him go but its so difficult for me... Alice, Alice.... why are u like that!!!!

Can you pls be confident in yrself!!! lots of frds, my siblings always knocking this to my head... you are worthy to be loved n care more...

Arh.... its driving me crazy.... really hard to let it go but i need too.... He got Gf le... Now jus give him blessing... Alice, i know u can do it....

I'll let fate decide my path le.... Very tired of everything....

Great Grandma, i miss u

2010-09-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

Its 103 days since Great grandma passed away... there is so much things i wanna share with her. I missed yr laughter, yr nagging, yr cough n yr voice. How i wish that u are alive, talk to me placing your hands on my lap and hearing my problems and giving advice.

Lots of things happening after u left... can see wad is really relatives true colour,can even say during yr wake, dun even respect u or ah mah, i had bad fall and ah mah got minor stroke, My bf left me etc....

Ah Zhor, can u pls bless me... i wanna recover fast, wanna go out, have fun know new ppl and dun wanna coop up at home le... i wanna be a change person and wanna walk out of the hurting memories...

I know you care abt all of us... so pls bless us...

Great Grandma, all i wanna say, I love and miss you alot. Wait till i recover, i will go to yr tomb to pray... Rest in peace Ah Zhor

Links to remember

2010-08-04T10:52:00.000-07:00

http://bab.com.sg/how-b-a-b-has-helped-me-grow-by-alice-ng/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=79FRyWMSbEo&feature=PlayList&p=E350B8DDCA348EFD&playnext_from=PL&index=0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yl4AhF25pcM&feature=PlayList&p

50 days after i Discharge

2010-08-04T10:28:00.000-07:00

It had been 50 days since i discharge from Hospital, staying at home resting and rotting its killing me, at time when we are at work we wish to have a break, for now i have a long medical leave but its really boring.

How i wish i can move and walk ard as usual but now cant. I missed the swimming pool, the beach, missed the time doing volunteering (feel bad that my frd got to cover me as i am on mc)

My siblings will be bring the dogs to the beach this come sunday which i strongly encourage them to go, have a break as they had been by my side these 2 mths. I tell myself to recover fast den can can go with them next round.

The scar on my leg is still visable, wondering when will it go off? must i wear pants everywhere i go to cover my long scar.

Seafood, Chili crabs, i'm longing for u....

Updates....

2010-07-24T00:17:00.000-07:00

Hi Ppl, how are u all doing? Hope everything is alright for you ppl...

There is so much things happening to me and my family members... Remember i mention earlier abt my beloved Great Grandma, She had passed away... I really Dearly miss her so much. She passed away at the age of 98 yrs old.

Hi Ppl, how are u all doing? Hope everything is alright for you ppl...

During her funeral, i had a bad fall and it turn out that i'm hospitalise(wed) and cant send her off her last journey(fri)... i cried bdly in hospital... haiz... its like i nail percing into yr heart...

My xray report shows badly fracture and doc ask me "Alice, did u met an motor accident or u just fall", i just fall doctor... the pain in unbearable that they got to give me jab to knock out me and i need to lie on bed... the jab make me wanna vomit and giddy... ard 10 min later off i slp... They did not operate me on the spot or the next day but opreate me only 5 days later which is on Monday morning... OMG!!! u know how it feels? i cnt stand up... so need to pee n poo on the bed, worst thing is, i cant pee on the bed pan... i am not use to it. The nurse say, if u are not peeing, we are afraid to insert a tube in you... so i tried peeing... finally thank God...

I cant slp on Sunday nite one day before my op. that morning i surpose to be at the slot at 10.30 but den i was called to change for my operation clothing at 6.30 den they push me in...

was shivering while on the way there.... its so scary... when i was op theatre check my details again n again and off i go... put on the mask off i go into my wonderland... i think my op should be 3 hrs long. after everything, they wake me up and i got morfin dozeage beside me, doc inform me, if pain den press the button... i understand and acknowledge and fall aslp again... i'm like damp tired/pain. go back to ward, take a sip of water, off i go into wonderland again. waking up half way to request frm nurse my hp and call home informing them i come out frm operation already. doze off again. my gd frd shawn is the first person to visit me, when he came i told him, shawn, can help me pour water, i am thirsty. he requested for a straw too so i dun need to sit up... Thanks bro... i'm too tired so went back to slp again. He accompany me and shouted in my facebook to my frds to update my status that i am weak so wont pick up any calls or sms. lots of frds and family members came but i am just damp tired.... close, open my eyes, no appitite to eat... jus super thirsty. leg wrap up like pig leg with a long tube of blood flowing to the bottle below my bed. I would never want to go thro this ever again...

Got 39 staples on my knee and was on hospital leave for 3 mths. the picture might be abit er xin...

How Has B.A.B helped me grow...

2010-05-14T08:17:00.000-07:00

I got to know about B.A.B through some google researches, and happened to came across a B.A.B makeover session last year.

I had always wanted to have a makeover kind of portfolio taken for myself, to help boost my self confidence.
I was a girl with very low self-esteem. To a point where I do not find a need to take any effort to doll myself up, or to treat myself to pretty clothes.

Also, being a plus-size, shopping for pretty clothes of my size is quite like a mission to me, not forgetting about it's sky high prices if they're available.
Shopping with my petite little sister doesnt help much as we're both wearing very different sizes of clothes.

A photo of how I dressed myself up before.

A few days before my photoshoot, I shared with Erica, Founder of B.A.B, about my low self-esteem, and how not confident I was of myself.

I then went ahead for the makeover photoshoot organized by B.A.B.
During my photoshoot, I was quite shy and I have absolutely no confidence in my poses, my body and myself.
It was only when Erica helped to direct and guide me through the poses and smiles when I feel more comfortable.

She has taught me not to be bothered about how other people are going to think about me and such, as long as we are happy and confident with ourself.
She has also taught me how to be comfortable in my own skin, and with my own body.

A selected picture of my Mini Makeover Photoshoot published in Chic Magazine.

Anyway, right after the photoshoot, I realized that B.A.B has many pretty plus sized apparels at affordable prices. Thus, I could not help thinking why shouldnt' I treat myself to pretty clothings like these.

After a couple of moments, a workshop was held to teach us how to wear a bra in a proper manner, and also the choosing of the correct bra sizes. I have learnt quite a lot from this workshop.

After attending the makeover photoshoot and workshop, I decided to be part of B.A.B mailing list where I will be updated on the latest updates on apparels or even events.

One day, I saw the B.A.B updates on a upcoming Fashion Show and I was really excited, but at the same time I didnt have the confident that I have what it takes.
Despite the low confidence in myself, my family and friends urged me to participate in the B.A.B Fashion show, so I decided to give it a try, and submitted my application.

I am honoured to be selected out of the 50 over plus-sized girls, to be one of the B.A.B Fashion Show Runway Model.
I was both excited and over the moon.

There were 3 rehearsals in all before the Big Day, and I missed my first rehearsal due to being infected with H1N1 virus and was hospitalized at that time.
Missing my first rehearsal made me even more nervous of my performance.

When the big day has finally arrived, I was extremely nervous, as I have no experience in walking the runway, let alone wearing a 2 piece infront of so many people.
Trying to keep my mind from running wild and mad from the loud booming music, I tried to stay composed and go ahead, whilst remembering what I have learnt from B.A.B. The poses, the smiles, the confidence in my eyes... etc.

And, there I go, strutting down the runway, with the confidence that I have never displayed, showing people how comfortable I am in my skin and how confident I am with my body.
With many people cheering and clapping down there, it is a feeling that is indescribable yet unforgettable. It was really a priceless experience for me.

After the Fashion Show, many people told us how well we've done. And it really makes me feel so good and confident about myself.

Now, I am so into getting myself all dolled up, with eyeliner, lipstick and a little cherry blush cheeks, not forgetting all my pretty dresses and clothings from B.A.B.
Many of my family, relatives and friends has noticed the change in me. The change of being bothered to make myself a more confident person that is comfortable in my own skin.

I owe this whole experience to Erica and B.A.B for giving me the opportunity to help me nurture my confidence. If not for her help, guidiance and encouragement, I would still be dressing up with my shabby oversized tshirts with bermudas.

Now, I am a contestant in the Miss/Ms Amazing Plus Size Beauty Pageant. I decided to participate in this contest, not hoping that I could win but just to experience this, as this is kind of a once in a life time experience for me.

To: All Plus Size Ladies out there,

It is those imperfections in you that made you so perfect of you are now.

It is not what others think or feel about you that matters the most, but what you think and feel about yourself that really matters the most. LOVE YOURSELF.

Once again, I would like to thank Erica, B.A.B, my friends, loved ones and you plus-sized babes for your unconditional love and support that has helped me become who I am today, A Confident Plus Size Prettygirl(:

A picture taken recently. (:

click here to B.A.B. website

Memories of my Beloved Lucky

2010-03-08T08:10:00.000-08:00

http://www.slide.com/r/ECTNa2w20D9EkNa42z1xUA3rs_CWYTw5?previous_view=TICKER&previous_action=TICKER_ITEM_CLICK&ciid=2810246167480036819

Updates of the past Events

2009-12-21T06:59:00.000-08:00

It had been quite busy but fun week.

Wanna update abt BAB Plus Size Fashion show on the 12.12.2009. This is the days which all the model had been waiting patiently.

Its really a life changing exprience for me. I Feel that way, my family members too... One person which i really wanna thank is Erica Sim the owner of BAB blogshop http://bab.com.sg/ Erica had been encouraging and motivating me. She is my idol, my advisor and motivator. Thanks Erica, I thank u deep down in my heart. You opened my heart, make me a much more confident, teach me to love myself more. Thanks Erica.

Well, i shall talk less le... Photos coming up....

Went for cousin Wedding on the 13 dec. Finally take pic wif mum. and took family pic. But when u see the pic later on its not yet completed. its not the full force.

Last but not least, i'm really surprise that i am in CHICMagazine: Issue 11, $2.80 available at most news stands. Really surprise. Thanks to BAB that i got a chance.

Updates on BAB Plus size fashion show

2009-12-06T08:40:00.000-08:00

It had been a super busy day on sat. BAB final full dress rehearsal. It was super fun but tiring...

Dun wanna talk much. enjoy the photos...

Busy busy monday

2009-11-30T04:58:00.000-08:00

Today is really super busy... manager and senior on leave, AE on MC, om super busy. left Jenny and i mending the office. Work like hell... stupid phone keep on ringing non stop. even lunch cant eat in peace. busy keying secondary sch options too...

Wad a busy day...

I'm Back

2009-11-29T08:38:00.000-08:00

Wow! surprise tat i will come back to Blog...

It had been a yr since i touched my blog... Dunno why suddenly feel like blogging again....

Lots to update you ppl...

I'm involve in BAB plus size fashion show and kind of excited for it. Its really a life time exprience and i'm glad to be choosen out of 56 ppl whom apply. 16 of the models will be running the run way.

You wouldnt understand how i felt...

Had been really busy recently... Keeping myself busy in order to think so much... well lots of photos to share with you ppl...

So ppl, Enjoy the photos....

Updates about the last few days

2008-09-29T08:28:00.000-07:00

It had been a busy weekend.... Let me update you guys...

Last Thurs

Finally, Change our office slow computer to new Pc. Much faster and screen bigger but is a LCD monitor. Rearrange and clean my table so now there is much more bigger space.

Last Saturday

Went to Grandma Stall to help her up den rush to Tanglin CC for help up Lady Boss (Mum's Frd). Reached there about 11.30am to 7pm. Busy like hell over there, Where as my younger sis and brother went to Tampines Safra to Watch the S1. Thai Boxing Fight. My Mum sent two students there and Both of them Won! so happy for them even though we seldom talk. Well Done Guys! My sis and bro was motivated after watching the fight. I hope to see them in the Ring to fight one of the day. I believe you guys can do it!

Sunday

Went to ah Mah stall as usual, Reached home at around 2pm den my sis and i going to rush to Tampines Safra to watch the 2nd day of Fighting. That was so Exiciting. Ah Biao represent Lana Muay Thai when is my mum group. I was impress with Ah Biao way of fighting. Is entaining and he is a bit yaya after he won. I guess he wants to enterianus audiance. We clap with joy...

After Ah Biao show, we rush to collect my Mei Birthday gift. A 5 mth old Jack Russell puppy. Florence is Happy... Her Wish come true... She is so mischivous and playful, Hopefully Ah ma and Ah Zhor able to accept her.

After that rush to Jiu Wang ye (Queenstown). Went to Changi to qing them back. Thanks Ah Lu Yi Po for sharing about Jiu Wang Ye histoty. Reached home ard 11+pm and falling dead... Too Tired... Talk to Dear for a while den fell aslp. Dear Sorry for chatting with you for a while. I'm too tired, Hope you understand.

Monday

Suddenly feel like eating vegetarian tat morning, Is the feeling despite Tami(my maid) prepare tuna sandwhich i return to herand ask her to eat. So Eat vegetarain that day... Happy Children day Kids.... Yakult is ready for collection... Yummy...

Actually planing to go watch movie wwith dear at tiong but 1stly too expensive, 2ndly we are hungry... so we decide to go makan. We went to sukae sushi thinking that there is buffet. We did not ask the staf there till we had a seat den we ask the staff. Quite disappointing that there isn't any buffet but we still order food there.

After makaning we walk ard TBP den proceed to chinatown to exchange malaysia Ringats... Go ard asking how much how much... Went back to grandma stall after that. Dear wanted to buy kways from ah mah but she dun wan to charge him. Hope u like the kway. It was raining heavily but ah mah and i need to send kway to jiu wang ye there, was under the rain for almost half an hr and not a fraking Cab. Pissed off. was super drench... Reach home about 1am. Bath and call Dear.

Tuesday

Surpose to wake up at 7plus to go ah mah stall but over slept till 8.10pm ah mah called home to check where i am but i'm still slping. Rush down to he stall and see uncle (my God daddy) moody and sleepy face. Sorry uncle... Ah ma steam Herbal Chicken to eat and she offered me but i'm eating Vegetrain as i am going to jiu wang ye there to help up.

Oh shit, had not buy my white pants. Ah mah ask ard to ask her frds where can buy my size white pants, some suggested Queensway some say penasula shopping centre. So rush down there... true enough there is my size and quite cheap White jeans at $25. (as for my size i hardly find cheap and nice) Rush home again to bath and rush down to jiu wang ye.

We went to 5 different temple/tentage to exchange joss sticks. the last tentage is at Enous, It is really big and nice. Hoping to see jeff father ard to say hello but can't see him as there is alot of ppl. Many photographer and videoman. MAybe they are impress that ladies oso can carry the God Bridge. (who say gers can't? If guys can do it, we gers oso can!) Reached back Queenstown ard 10pm. rushed home as i am super hungry. Eat, bath and talk to dear . slept at 12midnight. Its a tiring day i had...

Going for a short break over the week ends, will update u all again...

With Love,
Ailisi

Brand new Blog

2008-09-23T03:35:00.000-07:00

Firstly, Would like to Thanks Rey for Changing my blog into this. (simple but nice) Xie Xie Ni Bro!

Had been a long long time since i blog...

Let me intro again.

~ Ailisi Ng
~ This year 22.
~ Born in the yr of Tiger (abit Tigeress sometime, Dun step on me else....)
~ very emontional ger... Tough outside soft inside
~ Dunno how to be happy
~ Love my family alot Esp my Great Grandma and Grandma (w/o them i won't be here)
~ Treasure Frdship alot... Ppl whom know me will know... Ppl who dunno me will feel that i am yaya of firece as i seldom smile. Ppl who know me will know how crazy i am. (But i wonder, will my frds treasure me? 0.5% will... 99.5% treat me like football... need my help den approch me else can't even see them...)
~ Still stuck at the same old place to work (dislike some of the ppl there but had been tolerating for 4 yrs le...
~ Love volunteering... Where kindness rules! Seeing them smile melts my heart... currently serving the comunity. I believe that one day i'll touch a person life. Just join Radin Mas Civil Defence volunteer but thinking if i can really help. Dun have confident in myself esp how CAN i overcome the bloody screen as i witness a murder case and the bloody mother. Nightmare! Oh God let me over come this!

Lets see some picture....

Alice's Test Post

2008-09-22T19:09:00.001-07:00

Hi this blog is currently under construction! :)